I don’t write in a journal everyday, but I have accumulated many entries over the past 50+ years beginning in 1966. Some items evolved into longer works. Among the leftovers little pieces survived. I thought a collection of these with a piece culled from the same date in a past year would make an interesting yearbook. The consistencies and inconsistencies of mind, skipping back and forth across time, provide varied perspectives. It is difficult to remember the context of the past we’ve lived; we also make suppositions about times that predate ourselves.

The few alterations from original drafts were to improve clarity. The worst of my work is not included. There remains enough mediocrity and immaturity to make me feel humble and you feel smart. There are also moments of accidental insight and incidental humor.

Author Stephen Crane referred to his little pieces as pills…apparently they were small and somewhat hard to swallow, but good for you.


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Showing posts with label 1995. Show all posts
Showing posts with label 1995. Show all posts

Saturday, October 9, 2021

Goin’ crazy on the freeway of the 90’s

 

October 9, 1995  (I was 50)

 

Goin’ crazy on the freeway of the 90’s

one way no off ramp minimum allowed speed

faster than that heading west only perpendicular

to the sun too bright to know better too

indifferent to be on a car phone in Japanese

vehicle with the ambience of an ambulance

headin home

 

Goin’ nuts tryin to read the erratic digits

of time in light emitted from a diode fed

by a battery soon dead but still trying

to inform me it is later than I think

that I thought time could ever be

in this brief eternity on the road

headin home

 

Burned out laid rubber squealed tires

passed on the right and left by the oblivious

unnoticing that I am where they are hurrying

to be or not to be to be more exact

always just a little late for work for it to work

out right oblivious that the work is

headin’ home

 

Moon risin’ in the rear view mirror pale

rider notices vaguely half blind from refusing sun

to set confusing the mind behind the eye

seeing or not seeing behind the moon the sun

in front still reflecting off the distracted thought

of moon and sun and flying down the road

headin’ home

Wednesday, October 9, 2019

Goin’ crazy on the freeway of the 90’s


October 9, 1995  (I was 50)

Goin’ crazy on the freeway of the 90’s
one way no off ramp minimum allowed speed
faster than that heading west only perpendicular
to the sun too bright to know better too
indifferent to be on a car phone in Japanese
vehicle with the ambience of an ambulance
headin home

Goin’ nuts tryin to read the erratic digits
of time in light emitted from a diode fed
by a battery soon dead but still trying
to inform me it is later than I think
that I thought time could ever be
in this brief eternity on the road
headin home

Burned out laid rubber squealed tires
passed on the right and left by the oblivious
unnoticing that I am where they are hurrying
to be or not to be to be more exact
always just a little late for work for it to work
out right oblivious that the work is
headin’ home

Moon risin’ in the rear view mirror pale
rider notices vaguely half blind from refusing sun
to set confusing the mind behind the eye
seeing or not seeing behind the moon the sun
in front still reflecting off the distracted thought
of moon and sun and flying down the road
headin’ home

Monday, October 9, 2017

Goin’ crazy on the freeway of the 90’s


October 9, 1995  (I was 50)

Goin’ crazy on the freeway of the 90’s
one way no off ramp minimum allowed speed
faster than that heading west only perpendicular
to the sun too bright to know better too
indifferent to be on a car phone in Japanese
vehicle with the ambience of an ambulance
headin home

Goin’ nuts tryin to read the erratic digits
of time in light emitted from a diode fed
by a battery soon dead but still trying
to inform me it is later than I think
that I thought time could ever be
in this brief eternity on the road
headin home

Burned out laid rubber squealed tires
passed on the right and left by the oblivious
unnoticing that I am where they are hurrying
to be or not to be to be more exact
always just a little late for work for it to work
out right oblivious that the work is
headin’ home

Moon risin’ in the rear view mirror pale
rider notices vaguely half blind from refusing sun
to set confusing the mind behind the eye
seeing or not seeing behind the moon the sun
in front still reflecting off the distracted thought
of moon and sun and flying down the road
headin’ home

Tuesday, July 25, 2017

Newport Shortboards


July 25, 1995  (I was 50)

Newport Shortboards
The colors of surfing come from Hollywood
The real thing at Newport Beach is a study in grey
Shortly after dawn a vague horizon
separates the known sky from the known sea
an indistinct mingling wash from tarnished silver
down to a rippled granite green below
The incessant ssh ssh of ocean has the aural presence
of the constant hiss from California freeways
Distant waves wait then one by one
lift into a long ridge that rises beyond rock jetties
to proceed mechanically toward the shore
break high in predicable foamy fashion
and sweep to play into a thin mirror
long upon the sand
Hundreds of half-surfers in wetsuits dot the pewter surface
like dark waterbugs in a bobbing conglomeration
A few push up spider-like on selected swells
to ride tentatively a dozen yards before dropping
pulling off the wave and foraging back for another
or they tumble headlong somersaulting into the surf
or are flicked off in angular ricochet against the water
or they pump up and down in an awkward bounce
for a power that is not there
It is a long wait to see the long graceful slide
of one preceding a curl and carving turns
with the hula-hoop moves below a steady torso
you see so easily depicted in the movies
Most seem never able to leave the bobbing commune
displaying the frantic patience of aimless ants
going nowhere along a crest of anthills
They do not hear the heart pounding timpani
and deep noted trombone ensembles of Endless Summer
Nor do they quick cut from sapphire slides
across diamond sparkling lens flares
to enter emerald tubes in Hawaii
then emerging on the crystal shores of West Africa
Like most of us sipping coffee on our rented porches
these Californians work for everything they get