That man sits every night

 

April 5, 1972  (I was 27)

 

That man sits every night

trying to find a reason or excuse

for yet another episode in the continuing saga

Days and dreams can be confused

       in this film I play

       a short man who goes to work at eight

       everyday like a long run of Hairy Ape

       but with helplessly aware characters

        

       in another flick I’m never sure

       of who I am or how I’m motivated

       but I have the highest ideals

       and people place me in positions

Every night that man looks

but can’t even figure out

what it was he did that day

and whether or not he did it alone

       people on tv     

       really know how to live

       and only the unimportant guys die

       also there are a lot of cartoons

      

       I always wanted to play someone creative

       like a musician or writer

       not biographical

       but really intelligent fiction

Some nights that man writes it all down

without analysis

until it becomes absurd

and he can go to bed